My kids and my love love love

I have been following this author for quite some time and glad to pick up this article. http://www.aneverydaystory.com/2014/04/13/30-days-to-transform-your-play-day-14/

It discusses about "want nothing Time" it's something I can totally relate to as I very often basked myself into the "just spend time but wonder if tt purposeful" state of mind. And the extent of the guilt level ...I mind you .... is often a mind boggling "high" and you can so imagine my sense of relief by the end of the article. 

Kids: you grow and grow .... I may not be the best mom but I'm being the best that I can be at this given time. Hugs and love 

I will learn more and more each day 

Mummy gengen 

The buying must STOP

Yes! I've jus came home from a world of primarks / C&A / Pound Shop 

And guess what! I've over shopped once again for the kids! And this is big time over shopping and so i hate it and terribly guilty about it 

And so... I'm humbled...humbled by a true definition of what modern mum should be

 I've always lived by a simple principle in life... And a difficult one. I've always wanted to just be a 进的了厨房，出的了厅堂 woman...

I draw inspiration occasionally from some ladies I chanced upon and then continue to steer along my own journey.

Last week, I'm humbled by what I saw in Angela, a close client of mine who resides in Belgium where I met them and spent some time with. The visit changed my perspective and had me rethinking my life and my perceptions of many things... From this woman of my age whom i have so much to learn about and from:

- for the first time really, I must say I have a lot of admiration 

- the tai tais in the western world have it much less easy then the taitai in Singapore 

- they have a big house and very well to do. Yet she handled everything so well on her own 

- she worked for a few hours , got back during lunch to check the kids out, went back to work and came back home and prepared with a whipping wand some simple beautiful dinner and freshly baked dessert for me! Amidst looking after a young toddler like Lucus and being extremely sweet for her hubby. 

- it made me rethink the kind of woman I am and the woman I wanna be... For my hubby and my family 

- and yes .... The sg 50 lasses are indeed much spoilt to the core

- and you know what .... With such qualities in her , she deserve the beautiful life she is having now  

Thank you andry and Angela for this important  life lesson you taught me

Back Home with the Phangs

And so I survived the many days of biz trip and the different encounters! All in all I would like to say that I've grown so much as a person during this trip and well.... The kids too!

I dread that I miss some significant milestones but thank God for their good growth! So when I left, little Lucas was barely taking a few steps and when I'm back , the little one is walking really well and had become the most expressive little thing! I always like the toddler phase in children... Oh well... ever since Hongda my cousin was one and then followed by the Varman kids and ahem... The kids are P5 p6 now!

After my 13 days trip , I got home and with the blessing from the family... I slept so much.... And I sure hope that after this blog entry I will get back to sleep. Friday morning I slept from 9am to 3pm and 12 midnight to Saturday 3pm! And then again from 10pm to 3pm.

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Teared for the first time when I left the kids for this upcoming trip.

Simple fun... When learning is fun

Overall the kids had fun in that two hours with simple joy or interacting with people from station to station collecting stamps , goodies , learning about truck , motor cycle , good safety habits. I believe in experiential learning and hope they picked up a tip or two from Here

As an events organizer once upon a time.... I must confess that I'm always on the look out for an interesting event to 

Bring the kids to experience and learn. So when I learn about this road safety event .... I eagerly signed the kids up to attend! 

The Big Brother and Eye witness

I was very impressed and touched when I saw how BBC stood up for his lil didi today.

The kids get to spend some time at grandma's with cuz. Apparently didi was being pushed by the elder cousin and none of the adults managed to witness the episode. By the time we saw him, he was in the post fall position! We asked Around if anyone saw anything and Bbc stood up and exclaimed! Cousin pushed Didi. Proceed to do a life demo of how she pushed and subsequently how didi fell. Push animation with full commentary. He was affected and most affected when the cousin tried to deny it. He proceeded to hug his didi！

My heart melt! Is funny to see how kids react. THe cousin was shocked beyond words when she saw how bbc re enact the whole scene, she then confessed her act! Hahahaha 

Dear Korkor, thank you for being you today. You make mama proud and you acted like the kor kor I always yearn to have when I was a little girl. U reassured me that it's def worth it to gift a didi to you when you are so young as you have indeed started to care at a young age. 

Back to being a full time mummy

 ... So the helper did come back to Sg land and the Phangs after all! And my life as a working mama resumes in the next few hours. I was reminded by a fb posting on PepsiCo ceo that regardless of what position and role she plays @ work and what ever the demands are... Her role as a mother and daughter and wife don't change... And anything else should have not have any bearing! What a timely reminder! And I guess.... Vice versa too! 

I pray i continue to play the role well. As a full time working mum, I play 4 roles in one ( an employee / a mother / a daughter / a wife ) 

God please grant my strength and I thank you for your grace at work and at home. Thank you so much For the love and support around me. 

Help(Er)less eve of last day

I figured what will my worse fears be as a sahm! 

- LOs rejecting your gourmet menu

- the endless routine of clearing toys

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It's day 5.

The kitchen seems more in place after use. Dishes don't look so overwhelming anymore. 

To beat the morning clock to 1030 seems a manageable feat.

And the backache as of 2200 hrs is not so bad.

I reflect upon hubby comment and feedback to spend more time with junior.... And I said if  I had not been partial in my time allocation, it was nv intentional. Perhaps it's my lack of intention tt could have cause the lapse.

Today.... For the first time in 10 months .... I spend some sincere me time with junior. "Just you just me " we relaxed in bed, I sang him some hymns. He was calm, relaxed and filled with gratitude. I gave him a baby massage and didi dozed off. 

Didi mama love you. Perhaps I hadn't fuss over you as much as I did with kor kor. But you are certainly my dear dear son. Slowly but surly.... I will master the supermon attributes!

Hugs and cheers for being half way thru the challenge ! 

Help(Er)less! 10 days challenge

So the helper went on her 10 day long vacation and I took leave for the ten days set myself up for this challenge!

As expected,the unexpected came knocking:

- a 7am con call was scheduled on my first day of the challenge 

- the hubby have reservist medical check up on the same faithful day 

- lastly and most critically ... Horsie baby decide to fall ill for kinda the first time today! He is down with a fever :( 

- I had arranged for a buffet lunch with a bunch of mummies and the hot deal is on condition that I am present! Omg

End of School holidays!

It's Sunday and the official end of the school holidays! Tml... Conrad will commence term 2 of his pre school. The little one have done well so far and I'm so proud of him. Key milestones would be his readiness to be toilet trained and how he is ever so reactive and responsive to us. I truly thank God for this.

I took 2 days leave during the school holidays for the kids and I'm so glad it was not wasted!mummy me was determined to make the off days count for the kids and for myself. Turns out that the boy had so much fun the last few days during his horidae he is displaying some signs of anxiety while approaching Monday!

All in all... I truly count my blessings and I must say motherhood haven been as exciting as now when you start to have your Lil one revolve all around you.

Truly thankful.

Let Go and Let God

Do not worry about Tml for Tml have its own worries.

God I leave my burdens and worries to you and have faith that you will provide.

God I cast my worries and burdens onto you cos you are indeed my provider. 

Amen