Day one: superma wannabe

So it's the first 24 hours where auntie Ruth is not in and hubs and I Managing the household and the 3 little one! 

So here are some of the norm tt took place 

- while I was trying to get something from the fridge, I had to knock over a sweet chinchow drink and ended up having to clean the entire fridge and the floor 

- lost my finger print as my fingers reacted to the washing liquid. That had resulted in me not being able to get home

- Lucas puked all over his tux at the wedding dinner resulting in a big mess we had to clear amidst managing 3 kids and a sane dinner 

Hope it gets better Tml. Tml I will also need to manage the meals and the chores! 

It's me and my little world

I look back at my

Colourful life and it's a big contrast to what it is now.

The parties the many friends that I cross

Path with and the many ppl that meant something to me. Ok.... It would be the ones I have invited to my wedding! 

These random thoughts come about on this lazy Sunday cos my

Parents are away, my hubby is not at home and my lil sis just reached out on a friendship sos situation... Which prompted me to think of my world and how much it had shrink... From friend size... Phone calls and phone bill size... Ppl I meet on a regular basis. 

Like the hubby say, his friends are always his friends cos they accept each other's "por" and smelly "kuan" 

And someone once shared "you must know the person to like the person"

I'm still struggling in this dept called friendship. I get hurt too easily, affected too easily , critical too easily. Have expectations that perhaps I can't fulfill too. Anyway, like my sis ,

My priority have changed. While I don't 100 per cent like the way it is,

I doubt I have bandwidth to accommodate any else. 

Like the video my sons watch... The shoes are not shrinking it's you feet that it growing.

In a positive light , my world is not shrinking but rather... I'm growing !

The monster life

I'm done 

It cost to be kind

I'm sad. Period 

Everything links to the tummy

I don't know why .... Post the sad news, each time I feel angry my tummy hurts 

Chicken soup for the soul

The appt with dr Tham went well and indeed it was nourishing to the soul. He assured me that it's almost like a no biggie. Don't have to be afraid and the case is close ... In his words.

He was his usual gentle self. 

It was suppose to be this very special day

Here I am at dr Ben Tham clinic. What was supposed to be the beautiful and happy day to hear the heartbeat and see the bb. Oh well oh well.... I'm still here.... Q ing and in hope tt his assuring self will help mend this broken heart and send some assuring notes. 

I've been fine other then the occasional insensitive topics my sis like to talk about. Oh well! 

I suddenly feel like I should have been pang tang and all my pang tang self was right all the time. I need to be and should be. Then maybe this might have been an otherwise situation. 

I should have kept mum and not breathe a word to anyone abt this. I should have this and should have tt. Hiya.... When can I get out of this rut. 

God... Pls get me together